am freaking out right now. haven't the foggiest idea what i want to do in the future. at least steph has her whole lawyer thing and all that, even knows what jc and stuff she wants to take, so i rather envy her on that bit.


people always say do what you think you'll be happy doing, what you could see yourself doing for the rest of your life. the problem is, i don't think i'm good at anything. i did used to think perhaps geography, but i was wrong. i suck at that, even. i can't draw, write, act, debate or even play an instrument properly. oh shut up, the sax doesn't count, i suck at that too. i did though, once really enjoy this class we had in sec 1 and 2, design and technology. was rather good at it too. pity my school doesn't offer it o level. perhaps i should have gone out of school to persue it instead, is it too late for my aspiration as a carpenter(ress)?


hang on, i'm cheering up now. i'm going to go into spa therapy which is something i like and am remotely good at. my cousin makes me massage her everytime i see her and apparently says that it's as good as the funky thai massage she went for the other time.


ok. am quite cheered up now. typing to myself on a blog can be very theraputic you know. and oi tor, when are you going to next call? mum's been bothering me with her paranoia.


and another thing. in response to denise's post, i might be taking off the links to the other blogs. i don't see a point, practically everyone who comes here already has those addresses or aren't interested in them. it's the whole blog network thing, if you get what i mean.


have to go have dinner now, am having claypot rice. and speaking of clay, i need to make an entry about that clay aiken album that's just come out. another time then.