Actually, what's the point? I'll carry on as usual, why should I not carry weird conversations, with people you don't know, in front of you? It's not like you don't impress any of your influence on me, look at the class dynamics.

Yeah, being all irrational was fun. But I'm not going to bother putting up barriers, it's too much effort. You're not worth it anyway.

Ok, I give up. You win. I'll get out of your life, because I'm tired of trying. I'm not stupid, I can see and hear for myself.

Bimbos and people who hate my guts. Then everyone else is in a tight clique. So what's new? I've dealt with worse, only difference being I had people like Tora and Rosie in the immediate vicinity to take the edge off. Now the geographically closest people around have their own problems to deal with, plus I only see them what, twice a week?

Yeah, I'll still let you make use of me. Whatever. But I'll keep my damn mouth shut in class, I know it's the thing that annoys you most.

[edit] Yes, I know that I'm being petty. Let's just see where it goes anyway, shall we?[/edit]

Now, I have work to do.

Ok, so I mostly screwed up my common tests. Not sure how to tell parents. I actually have to start studying -properly- now, damn. I can feel the marathon, in the pace of school and the structure of work.

Urban case studies to be completed, by May. Econs graphs for all topics usable by June. Lit notes to be re-written by end of May.

You know, someone once told me you thought of your life as a sort of anime. Maybe it is, because every other week now you're telling me, or I'm hearing something that's gone wrong. I think maybe I've gone past the point of caring, because it's tiring, and because all I can do is listen. Does that make me a bad friend?

Mother's slipped disc isn't getting any better, and it's been more than 3 months.

And having an absent boyfriend gives me license to say "insert angsty teenage quote here".

Sometimes I think he's a fantasy I came up with, in those hazy moments of half dream, or half consciousness. A distant figure that speaks as a stream of words on a screen. Talk of work, mocks, parents. Though of course, he's still the same charming figure. Just strained, which is perfectly understandable.

It is selfish, but I find myself retreating, my heart placed more on anime I used to enjoy so much, and books. It is better. I think I'm not cut out for this.

THIS IS TOR

Ok, ok, I am guilty of forgetting Glor's birthday... but I remembered a few days later! Anyway I hope Glor had a happy birthday. Here is the very delayed meme of 4 thingies that I can suddenly do now because I've finished my exams! Yay. Just went to Edinburgh for a couple of days, will post pictures when I have internet again. It was snowing and the whole city was so pretty, like in a fairytale! (*simper simper, pirouette, big eyes*)


Meme of 4

4 Jobs You’ve Had In Your Life

Off the top of my head,
1. Stage manager for a show in the singapore arts festival (haha sounds cool but lots of shit work actually) Also various FOH and backstage work for shows.
2. working in the zoo. one job I had was to carry an albino python around so that the photographer could offer to take pictures of people with the snake.
3. intern at legal research centre. was cool writing letters and faxes to famous publishing houses. 4. shop girl in a shop serving tai tais.

4 Movies You Could Watch Over And Over
Before Sunset
Spirited Away
Snoopy Come Home
Interview with the Vampire

4 TV Shows You Love(d) To Watch
CSI (original only)
Sex and the City
South Park
Futurama
Desperate Housewives
Temptation Island sorry! I can't help it... it's order of preference though.

4 Places You’ve Been On Vacation To
where do i start? Can I do it by country? China (shanghai, beijing, xian, guangzhou, suzhou, guilin, HK..)
New York and DC (best vacation ever)
Italy (Florence, Rome, Milan, Naples, Capri, Venice, Ancona, Sardinia)-- favourite european country
Malaysia-- Sipadan, a tiny island off the east coast that's closed now for "ecological reasons"

4 Places You Would Rather Be

right now? or to live in?
Right now: Home in SG
South coast of France
Queensland
In SIA first class flying home to SG, watching loads of movies, eating nice food and wrapped up really warm, not having to worry about stuff like rent, work etc. bliss.

Live in:
I'm actually happy where I am in London if the weather picks up
NY
Paris, if I could speak French
SG, if I can go to thailand to shop/tan/eat nice food every weekend

4 Of Your Favourite Foods

This is a real toughie
Laksa with 'ham'
Old Chang Kee curry puff
just plain old bloody mee pok
And it's a tie between -really- good coffee, and spaghetti vongole at ciao bella. (actually their tiramisu comes a close third, hm)