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Hi. I know I'm meant to write something interesting for you but i've failed sadly and miserably in that task. Apart from having no internet access (new house) i've been trying to get in as many training contract applications as i can and not screw up my internship in the meantime. So this is a pathetic, sorry excuse for how boring i have become. There are times when I suddenly look up in the middle of a sober client meeting and think, i wonder what would happen if i stood up. said what i thought, and walked away. 'You guys suck'. 'Just take the freakin £50m and stop quibbling about the £30m can?'. But no. I am a conformist and deep down, I just wanna be like lots and lots of other people in suits. Who have proper jobs and contribute as valuable members of society. And act and talk and think in the same way.

Do you know in VJ we did a lit text called Regeneration, about shell shocked soldiers who find it difficult to integrate into society? One character goes missing at some point and is found lying naked on the muddy earth next to a tree with dead animals surrounding him. 'I am one with the earth', he says. It is a metaphor for man's struggle to find somewhere to belong (blah blah waffle). But you know, that's kinda how I feel right now. I'm quite happy to let my identity be subsumed, it's not quite as dramatic as it sounds, because we all have to conform to the extent that working in an office demands it, but it feels slightly dangerous for me because I don't even feel like as if I have a fully formed identity in the first place?

Ok rambling on does not a interesting post make. I will leave you to it, random reader. And glor of course. Hi!

eldred called the other day, yay! told me he met Michael Kaluta at the comic convetion on sunday, this is Kaluta's site. please vist, it's got fantastic work (you know it is when a non-artist is saying it).

followed a link from his site to Tommy Castillo's site. it's a little bit bizarre as am chatting with cousin on phone, accounts tuitor online, listening to gackt's unplugged album and viewing things like a dragon enjoying human soup and little red riding hood kicking the big bad wolf's ass.

hey adam, thanks! and i think you should get a blog, really...

hallo althea! hope you've been doing well. see you in school on monday?

i know about those songs chan, used to have them in my com before it got re-formatted. occasionally have kikumaru going 'tonde tonde, mawatte, matta raishuu!' and random people screaming from drinking inui juice running around in my head. the thing that kills me is the fact that i've no idea what's going on, everything being in jap. am going to ask vanessa for the set of PoT music animus burned for her...

gomen, amanda! typo!

ok. am off to drink apple flavoured milk now. just rather needed to post that down.

am listening to gackt's seventh night album that rosie burned.

please kill me, right now.

it is so good. not that it's a host of new songs, rather it's an unplugged version of many of his favourites and i love acoustic. that and gackt of all singers... the bit that i love most is the fact that he smokes and drinks but still can sound like an angel, also has a very versatile voice. have no idea what his range is but is larger than mine. not to say mine is large but im a girl. and everything is self written and re-recorded.

for those who hve no idea what i'm talking about, have added a random quiz for you to do...

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Name:
Hair:	In a style so odd, it defies all laws of physics.
Clothes:	A bit revealing, but nothing too over the top.
Powers:	None
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ok lah ok, will make post. have neglected to update as am not the type to post just for the sake of posting. don't have much to say, been holed up at home for 2 weeks, parents trying to clear off-days.

the most exciting thing that's happened to me recently is that i've changed from chocolate fresh milk to apple and mango flavoured milk. it's good stuff man, am currently very enthusiastic abt it.

guess what i've just discovered. i technically have a friendster account.
(during dinner just after the exams)
me:don't believe in friendster. i don't have an account
kc:yes you do.
me:no i don't
kc:i've added you.
what the hell? you see, the first (and last time) i tried to sign in, think i completed the form but the site spat me out, something abt not being cookie enabled or some such computer-speak. so for those of you who have added me now you know why i haven't responded lah. is there anyway of deleting that damned account? will only log in for that purpose..!

see how sad my life is? ok, shall not wallow in self pity.

just got computer reformatted, yay! no more random pop ups! but on the down side, all bookmarks gone. so can you (yes, you) please leave your blog address on the tag board? thanks. on second thoughts, tag on whatever site you happen to find interesting that you'd like to share, i suppose...

have updated blogger profile. but not sure as to how to link it on the blog itself... tora-sempai, can you help..?

watched harry potter. ok lester, i admit it, gary oldman makes a fine sirius black. whoever played lupin should have been given more screen time as well. am not going to review movie here as some have not watched it yet and if i do, could go on for the rest of the post. which is not the point.

ok, on to tag responses.

mel, choir? descant? hallo! how did you find my blog? and think have tagged you, not sure as it was quite some time ago..?

badang, what pizza? and how're things going for you?

hallo keiran! so when are you going back? when does your school term start anyway..?

well it's not my fault amamnda... you didn't have to give in to temptation. we shd do it again sometime yeah? heh heh! and am not a lazy pig.

link lah roach. but please note that i won't link you back. have a policy abt not linking.

adam! wassup? thanks for the compliment. see you at prac?

hey to you too. wah lau cass, you change blog add like change underwear?

mavis, guess where they stopped over on the way to new york? and spent the night there!? i want to kill them!

what holiday sam? 2 weeks straight got to go back to school then parents home some more. ack, we're in the same boat huh?

urusai sempai! you think so easy to update is it? different pple different blogs lah, don't rush me! see you monday yeah? bring fma, am suffering withdrawal symptoms :P

ok lah, so like that lorh. am off to drink my mango flavoured milk now.