It was over the phone
as it always is,
in the middle of the night
filled with long periods of silence-

she wasn't enough,
he needed someone
to fall madly
and desperately
in love with,

no hesitation
no pause
without thinking
head over heels.

In the end
he does after all
need someone
smarter
and prettier
and younger

so that he wouldn't be
stuck only waiting
with his toes
just on the
edge.

She is sorry
that she wasn't enough
to send him
flying.

That it wasn't
the fucking fairy tale
we are always looking
for-

I'm not that girl.


I'm always,
never that girl.



(Original Reference Text)
I know you can't hold out forever,
for a boy who won't jump.
When he falls in love,
he just stands
with his toes on the edge
and he waits for it
to disappear again.